a day with excitement

today, me and my group had presented a drama (sort of) for forensic psych subject... it was about a killer, who killed (suspected) his wife and daughters.
this drama divided into 2 scenes: 1st scene was describing what the killer has told the police; 2nd scene was how the police think...
so, i'm acted as the killer...

in the 1st scene, i have to show great sorrow when i found out "my family" was killed by someone else, without any lines...
whereas in 2nd scene, i have to "kill" "my wife" and "my daughters" cruelly...

that means, i have to show great amount of emotions which i usually don't show. the feeling of sorrow and anger are strong feelings... (challenging~~)

however, i manage to act it out (yay~~)... the respond from the audience was quite positive (maybe most of them are attracted to the wife, by the way, the wife is a he)...

just that, after the acting, i was in "low battery"...

it kind of a good experience for me though... as in i seldom express strong emotions...

it's the last month for the year 2011~~ preparing my thesis, finals... but i think i still manage to have time to recap what i've done in this year and summarize it, like i use to do...

感触

我很累了
一直一直用头脑来生活
忽略了聆听
变成机器人，只会functioning, 不是 living...
花一点点时间聆听自己，暂时放下assignments
想流云似水般的生活

it's been a long time

有多久没写Blog？3个月了吧
（为什么不常写呢？）就觉得没什么好说的罢

近况：

1. 继续做着自己给的功课，影像越来越清楚，就说那个问题越来越大个，有点担心自己又不知不觉掉进黑洞里，但事实上我并没有（这里就是一个超大的进步！到这种地步也没掉进去~呵~）我变得比以前厉害了嘛
2. 目前是3rd year 1st sem，开始plan 自己的thesis了~自己一个人做叻~有点恐怖一下
3. 决定去今年年尾department 举办的prom night。因为没有这类的经验，所以去学习下也不错
4. 已经学会一个人去看电影了
5. 由于最好的朋友有了另一半，所以界限要划得非常清楚，有些事不能跟他说，有些行为也不能再做了。还是会有所顾虑，虽然知道他不会介意，只是，担心自己定力不够...（相信自己多一点吧~定位已经放得稳和清楚了）

平平淡淡地做学生吖~写意写意~

近来

semester break, 有一个月半...决定去做工，之前本打算做internship，但是大学offer的公司地点大多在KL, PJ, DAMANSARA...交通是个问题，所以没申请。之后找到一个幼儿园老师的工作，明天去看看

前几个星期都恍恍惚惚地过，不过现在渐渐好了，大病初愈的感觉

Hmm~朋友们，约我吧约我吧~~嘿嘿

最近

上个星期六搬了家...

现在有了自己的房间，虽然很热+不习惯，不过我会想办法在不装冷气下把我的房间变冷的！

在那之前，自己的情绪是时候整理了

小鬼一枚

Hmm...

得承认我有时还蛮小孩子的，不过要看在谁前面。那个准则吖，嗯，值得信赖和我对他没有防心的人吧~

这种人很少哦

随便写写

嗯...最近过的悠哉闲哉...很少和自己吵架了...

成绩上个星期出了，稍微下滑一点...自己还能接受。不过好朋友他啊，受到了生平第一次的打击，最近看到他都还没恢复。他已经很久没掉进“黑洞”那么久咯~样子也变老了...吖~~似乎延伸出identity crisis...

hmm...在我快要掉进or已经掉进“黑洞”时，他总是扮演提醒我的角色；当我觉得我好像在刚线索上摇摇欲晃时，他会拉我一把...

虽然我比较小只，力气也没那么大，不能完全支撑他，不过，只要他想找人说话，我都会在旁边。当他blur blur 的时候，就会提醒或者大力拍醒他...看当时适合什么方法

似乎我对他会特别照顾么？没，这是我对朋友的照顾和态度。虽然平时的我不怎么说话或者安慰人，不过我会默默地关心我的朋友。

P/S: 要我主动关心人可是很难得的哦~

时不时会羡慕他有很多的朋友，因为自己似乎和以前的朋友都脱离了。

不过hor，说羡慕也没什么羡慕，因为即使朋友没来找，我也能生活得不错。只是贪心，想要更多的朋友。

反观现在的我，有几位在学业上可以互相帮助的朋友，一位知己，一位老师朋友，这些已经足够让我很好地度过目前的生活了。

知足，珍惜...

P/S: hope that he could get through this crisis soon... miss his smile...