thesis V.S. CNY

CNY is around the corner and I'm packing coz tomorrow will back to my hometown... 


at the same time, my thesis... still in progress... but I'm worry that the progress is too slow and afraid I couldn't submit the proposal in time... sigh... having a dilemma right now


I guess I have no time to read my journals when I back to my hometown... have to help my mum in the kitchen... social with uncles aunties cousins... visiting relatives etc. ... these activities will eat up my majority holiday time...


I already have a brief idea of my thesis but have to specify and justify... ORZ... plus, my friends' supervisor said what is the expected standard for thesis, even how to construct a thesis proposal is different from what we learnt in the past two years (the proposals that we wrote in the past two years are way too simple and immature )... and now, those supervisors expect to see some maturity in the proposal...


BIG CHALLENGE!! (>.<)


well, I think I manage to get some time free to construct my thesis and at the same time, enjoy my CNY holiday (which seems impossible but I'll try)

(自言自语) 什么时候可以做完我的thesis 吖？（遥望~）

can I?

I just don't want to cry alone in the middle of night again...
my pandora's box has opened... forcefully by my mother...

at the end, she can't handle it, and she just let me deal with my emotion alone...

i cried and scream silently in my room... until i feel there's no more tears for me to cry

these 2 days i feel emptiness and lost... i live just like a doll, a robot...

i covered the box temporary, for me able to carry out daily activities

but i know i can be brave to face what is inside the box...
when i can face and deal with it, i'm closer to the day that i can smile from the bottom of my heart

that day will come, soon...

THESIS

真的不简单，第一次一个人做整份report，包括search lit.review、think of research ideas~~~

这几天收到supervisor 的回复后，头痛了好几天...要加什么东西进去我的题目里可以使到它比较特别叻？

加上真的很赶，要在这个星期交出proposal...

只有做了